I Want To Plant A Camilla Tree
Yesterday I sat in the garden suddenly in shock that I had moved house. After years of living in my little flat suddenly I have woken up and found myself in a little mouse house, a fairy garden with circular paving slabs and twinkling wind chimes, there is even trees that dapple and dark green ivy climbing along the walls. I am astounded as though I moved here yesterday but I have been here nearly two months now. It’s strange sometimes how my brain works, always catching up to itself a little later than most.
In my flat I created a strong woman who bared a lot of change, fell in and out of love, learned how I look after herself, learned how to survive and ultimately found through every challenge i grew more resilient, a woman who not only loves others, but deeply and truly believes in one true love, in the relationship she formed with herself.
In that energy, last year I set myself some goals:
. Choose peace over problems, every time.
In a year where everything felt complicated, people confusing (and sometimes hurtful) situations overwhelming, and just generally feeling run down and burnt out, I am actively choosing to receive only peace and calm energy. I want gentle voices and gentle hands. I need uncomplicated conversation and for the content to be light and easy. No more analytical critical thinkers or projection, no more confusion, just simple easy breezy relationships to heal my soul.
. Live In Creative Intention
Creativity tends to evade me in the winter time, snuggled under warm blankies and a heavy dog, it’s inevitable that a lapse in creativity energy and a rise in nap time becomes the siren song of wintertime. Now it is nearly Spring I want to start waking up early and going to the gym, getting my daily dopamine hit and serotonin boost at the waking moment of my day so I can live the rest of the day in a state of creative play. I want to be drawing before and after work, sketching out ideas, creating collages and painting overalls at the door ready for my return, I want to keep a sketchbook on me and reportage draw like the good old days. It feels like such a while since I felt the flow of arty energy but I do feel myself flirting with it, inviting it and living it.
To Decorate My Little Mouse House
for the first time ever I am living in a house where the landlord has told me I can do want I like, and I intend to! This weekend I want to return to nature by getting into the garden and laying out earth and muddying my hands with the joy of pushing bulbs into dug out spaces, the joy of seeing them grow imminent and rewarding. I will start with irises tall and important and work my way toward pansies, small and powerful. A hose full of water and a mug full of coffee, I can’t wait. I want to plant a camilla tree. Tulips. Tulips everywhere.
To Seek Opportunities and Creative Some of my Very Own
. This year I really want to take Bitsifind to new places within the community. I want to become a founder of all things making, I want us to make art together, spend the evenings painting and getting to spend time together. I want my artwork in local shops and business both in print form and murals, I want to take time to indulge in community events and host them. I will be prioritising Bitsifind as a self sustaining creative practise. I want to illustrate books and magazines and poetry, I have had so many wonderful opportunities given to me in the past and I’ve fit them around work and hard feelings, in my light girl era I want to see just how far this self love and belief and determination will get me with my full energy and determination behind it.
Other goals are subject to and not liable to change including:
. Kiss more dogs
. Spend time with loved ones
. Go out dancing
. Make pottery
. Take shoes off and walk in grass often
. Watch more sunrises and see more sunsets
. Swimming swimming swimming
. And of course more feelings, flowers and floopers
Keynote Glimmers that happened today :
. I saw a dog and we fell in love
. A woman dressed entirely in pink cuddled me and said I have a lovely smile
. I saw three men in high vis eating pastries from Greggs laughing loudly with the same rambunctiousnous, they were like brothers
. Two old ladies with flowery shoppers and duffle coats smoking ciggies and laughing down the highstreet
. seeing a bird in the birdhouse by the tree in my garden, morning coffee, morning ciggie. Lovely.
So that’s my little post for today, I am feeling so grounded and placed where I need to be, I just need to get started! What goals are you setting yourself or glimmers you have seen recently? I would love to know!
Have a great day cuties!! Spring is coming!!
Love From
Bitsifind x